Sunday, April 29, 2012

Just Me

Sometimes when I can't seem to figure something out in my mind, or when I keep having negative thoughts about something or someone over and over, I write.  I just write unhindered, not for others to see, but just whatever comes in my mind at that moment. Stream-of-consciousness writing.



 
I was doing some of this stream-of-consciousness writing the other day, trying to work through some troubling emotions.  It was concerning feelings of rejection for not "measuring up" to someone else's unforeseen standards.  As I was writing, after about a page and a half, the pen just wrote, seemingly by itself: "I am me and that is enough."  I thought, "There it is!  That's the answer I was looking for!"  I felt an instant peace come over me with this new realization.

I continued the thought and wrote a little poem thing:

I don't need you to understand me to make me whole.
I am me, and that is enough.
I don't need to perform in hopes of gaining your favor.
I am me, and that is enough.
I don't need to work to be deemed worthy by you.
I am me, and that is enough.
It is enough for God.
It is enough for me.
Just me.
I am enough.

That's it.  Coming to this realization somehow took away my anger and resentment toward this person, and also reminded me of the truth I read in a quote not long ago:

If you are your authentic self, there is no competition.


10 comments:

  1. I loved this poem! Yes, writing can be both healing and freeing, can't it? How wonderful that the words you needed to see, needed to believe, jumped right off your pen.
    Beautiful and inspiring!

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    1. Healing and freeing, yes, that's what it is. :) Thank you martha!

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  2. Writing is the cheapest form of therapy!

    What a good affirmation!

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    1. It is a good affirmation -- I have to remind myself of it a few times a day, so as to not slip back into unhealthy thinking.

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  3. What a great poem...and so true! Self-acceptance can be so liberating! I always feel a lot better and feel like I have more clarity after I write a stream of consciousness entry in my journal. Loved what you shared during your writing time...This is my first visit at your blog..I look forward to coming back again. :)

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    1. Thank you Jessica! I'm encouraged now to write every morning. :)

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  4. Oh Jimi Ann, this is just beautiful. YOU are truly ENOUGH and I'm enjoying the connection with the beautiful, loving person you are. Looking forward to reading much more from you. ♥

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  5. How true Jimi Ann. In this short and beautiful poem you said it all.

    http://rimlybezbaruah.blogspot.in/2012/04/dusk.html

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  6. I really loved your post, in fact I wrote something like this yesterday on my site, about me being ME :)

    http://sulekharawat.com/2012/04/30/zero-tolerance/

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  7. This was wonderful. Being raised a people-pleaser, I need to be reminded of this too: That I'm good enough.

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